For My Beloved Father
(1929-1992)
The tortoise hides in marsh grass
solid and still, a footstool for the windresting its legs.
With the silence, afternoon shadows lengthen
and my thoughts stretch toward you, that day
when I was a young daughter
watching minnows slide under seaweed,
a turtle under his shell, even the sun
ducking under dock leaves.
I asked, are they playing hide and seek?
You smiled and nodded yes.
Still curious, I added
Who’s counting, God?
Again, you smiled and whispered,
Probably,
He keeps track of all things.
A silver flash of leaf or fin
flared and faded into rippling water,an unwinding sentence.
When they die, there’ll be a pond and trees
in heaven, just like here?
You took a few seconds to answer,
There will be a lake
and forest to care for everyone.
Satisfied, I turned back to the water,
my reflection
wavering into a tallnessthat could almost touch the other bank.
And today, I am still attempting to reach
that bank without
the wind, only prayerand a need to confess --
I haven’t been hiding
all these years
or seeking to avoid
your presence over there. I just didn’t know how
to ask for help -- or say I still need you.
A heart to rest my grief, to give shelter
within a small wilderness.
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